1st time in 14 years

Before you all reading this post i advice that do not proceed to spoild a nice Mother's Day to you all as on this day i never be happy again...its better you all read it after this special day...


1 yr had past since my last post on mother day as time really fast passby and in 1 yr a lot of things can happen...in my life more things screw up in this 1 year time and a lot of un happy things happen...

14 yrs had past you left me alone and dont u felt its cruel towards me...i always wanted to switch place with you*i really mean it*i cant live without you but you sure can live without me... ;)

you plan to abort me but why you never do so?i don blame if u aborted me but i blame u left me without a another priceless words MUMMY i can called...

1st time in 14 yrs i never went to your grave on ching ming festival this year coz i was not in town...if happen i were there you will unhappy see us all also coz we all*family*never seem so close and talking...we busy with our stuff seem like usual life and never had a great chat among each other...i promise that if not next month or july i go back kuching if i had enough saving to go back that time,1st i wana do is pay respect at your grave...

sory i had to say tis but i do not wish so as last yr when i plan to get away from kuching i was thinking tat if i left than ah kong*your father* left tis world then i duno can manage to come back or not...then he passed away last sept on the 1st...im not cursing him but just thought about it...now i think you will be happy as ah kong and ah mah accompany you up there...*ah mah passed 14 years away on my birthday*

i think you sure still continue your hobby that baking but i cant try it anymore...last time i can try it when i was a little kid...*i missed those taste*

anyhow i still regret i never treat you nice when you cant move around after the operation...sometimes in a week i saw you vomitted few times but i felt very disgusting to help throw...i am really a jerk and disappointed you as a son...

i better stop here before any tears drop from my eyes again...

lastly i wana wish you and all the mother in this world Happy Mother's Day...

Mummy...I really missed you...

p/s :i really appreciated that if you took me to live with you soon as i really wana treat you and repay back what i never did as your son...i will never blame you for bringing me with you so soon as i will blame you if you dont bring me see you soon...