Sunday, May 13, 2007

1st time in 14 years

Before you all reading this post i advice that do not proceed to spoild a nice Mother's Day to you all as on this day i never be happy again...its better you all read it after this special day...


1 yr had past since my last post on mother day as time really fast passby and in 1 yr a lot of things can happen...in my life more things screw up in this 1 year time and a lot of un happy things happen...

14 yrs had past you left me alone and dont u felt its cruel towards me...i always wanted to switch place with you*i really mean it*i cant live without you but you sure can live without me... ;)

you plan to abort me but why you never do so?i don blame if u aborted me but i blame u left me without a another priceless words MUMMY i can called...

1st time in 14 yrs i never went to your grave on ching ming festival this year coz i was not in town...if happen i were there you will unhappy see us all also coz we all*family*never seem so close and talking...we busy with our stuff seem like usual life and never had a great chat among each other...i promise that if not next month or july i go back kuching if i had enough saving to go back that time,1st i wana do is pay respect at your grave...

sory i had to say tis but i do not wish so as last yr when i plan to get away from kuching i was thinking tat if i left than ah kong*your father* left tis world then i duno can manage to come back or not...then he passed away last sept on the 1st...im not cursing him but just thought about it...now i think you will be happy as ah kong and ah mah accompany you up there...*ah mah passed 14 years away on my birthday*

i think you sure still continue your hobby that baking but i cant try it anymore...last time i can try it when i was a little kid...*i missed those taste*

anyhow i still regret i never treat you nice when you cant move around after the operation...sometimes in a week i saw you vomitted few times but i felt very disgusting to help throw...i am really a jerk and disappointed you as a son...

i better stop here before any tears drop from my eyes again...

lastly i wana wish you and all the mother in this world Happy Mother's Day...

Mummy...I really missed you...

p/s :i really appreciated that if you took me to live with you soon as i really wana treat you and repay back what i never did as your son...i will never blame you for bringing me with you so soon as i will blame you if you dont bring me see you soon...

38 Comments:

Blogger L B said...

Come, buy you a drink..

6:46 AM  
Blogger may said...

I don't suppose there are any words of comfort I could give you, I'm bad at these things. at least I could give you a virtual hug...

7:18 AM  
Blogger ah nel said...

lb :i not tat lich fly to larnturn just to hv a drink... ;)

may : *accept the hug coz ur big day*

thanks to both of u as u ppl nvr slp kar so early ledi can commenting...

*u both just try out smth notti on the new sofa*

8:29 AM  
Blogger angel said...

Come lah hug liu... dun sad ok...

8:34 AM  
Blogger ah nel said...

angeliu :awwwww...now i felt warm...

*hope i don get caught by police coz i so old to hug a lil gal*

:)

8:38 AM  
Blogger Will said...

life is short... just enjoy yourself and live life to the fullest while you're still here. don't always think about -ve things.

take care man

8:39 AM  
Blogger ah nel said...

will :for me i don cared so much bout my own life but ppl around me tat i cared much... ;)

thanks...

8:47 AM  
Blogger cal81 said...

your mom would definitely appreciate this post, i'm sure...

take care, dude

11:46 AM  
Blogger Kenny Ng said...

Your mom will know how bad u miss her. I'm really sorry about your mom's story, I can say you are very strong bro.

11:50 AM  
Blogger a^ben said...

*gives ah nel a pat on the shoulder*

3:07 PM  
Blogger Wuching said...

come i give free hugs! men also can hug men wei!

3:17 PM  
Blogger pisang goreng 115,NF said...

*hugs* ahnel.....
no worry.....
take good care to your father now when he sick....
at least when he passed away he will tell you are good son

5:08 PM  
Blogger _butt said...

your mom sure knows how much you missed her.. *hughug*

:)

5:51 PM  
Blogger Chen said...

although your mum is not together with u physically, she will always remain in your heart, and she wants u to be happy too...

7:06 PM  
Blogger King's wife said...

Don't be so sad. *hugs*

9:19 PM  
Blogger ah nel said...

calvin :up thre no internet connection ler!

thanks pal...

kenny :thanks bro...

a ben : *felt the pat n now i felt more better*

;)

wuching :i know but make sure ur thing wont touch me when u hug me...:)

pisang :i don even noe my father is sick worr!how u know?

i get what u mean and thanks...

butt :i'm sure she will coz 1 not yet accompany her...

lokter :i forgot to took her picture with me when i left kuching but next time i go back sure wil take it and oput in my wallet so i can be more near to her...im not that happy coz she not around...

kw :how not to be when someone you love left you when you were so young...

*felt the warm hug*

11:18 PM  
Blogger ah nel said...

thanks you all for the hugs and lovely comments...i hope it din spoild your lovely day...

11:20 PM  
Blogger Cocka Doodle said...

Oi Sorhai! Don't evrytime talk about yourself wanting to die lah.
Be a bit positive can anot?
Life isn't all that bad if you know how to live it.
There is so much to live for and so much to do.
Chin up! Go head-on with full of passion and drive.

Then someday, visit her grave and tell her that she should be very proud of you.

12:40 AM  
Blogger zewt said...

hey dude! thanks for dropping by my blog. i read your entry last mothers' day and this one. it's never too late to repay our mom, and i am sure your mom wouldnt want you to follow her up there so soon. you can repay her by doing your best in your life, live the life that your mom has always wanted, and i am sure you mom will be very pleased with you!!!

dont give up on life my friend!

hope to see ya around!

2:05 AM  
Blogger ah nel said...

cocka :i memang sorhai wad...i din mention die word ler...lanjiao...i just hope to c my mom soon tat oso wrong kar?

im stil a sucker so she wil never had a chance to be proud of me...

2:06 AM  
Blogger ah nel said...

zewt :i never know ur blog til last time u drop by my blog...maybe in her heart she dowan so but smts i felt she lonely like me now...

don woli as i believe my life wont end up with suicide coz im not tat stupid to do so...

see you soon if have chance...

2:09 AM  
Blogger Winn said...

if u say u care abt others' then u must care abt urself first...else how to care abt others ?

*brings teh tarik*

4:26 AM  
Blogger ah nel said...

winnfierce :care bout others ledi no time to care bout ownself...

*too sweet*

*prefer milo or horlick kosong kaw kaw*

u no need slp kar?so late stil commenting...take care of urself 1st... :P

8:32 AM  
Blogger Will said...

agrees with winn... if you wanna care about others, must care for yourself... take care :D

10:37 AM  
Anonymous JL said...

agree with Uncle Cocka except the 'stupid ketam' part :P

Success, and happiness don't just fall from the sky.

Work hard & persevere if you want success.

Be good to yourself and do good to others if you want happiness.

I always believe what goes around comes around.

'Life ain't always beautiful but it's a beautiful ride' :) cheers

11:40 AM  
Blogger janicepa said...

hahaha.. sorhai ... be cool , be positive, be sampat la...

12:55 PM  
Blogger Sasha said...

hmmmm Ah nel.
Sorry i cannot hug u cos my nen nen not big enuff.

Anyway, Chill la.

3:34 PM  
Blogger AceOne118 said...

Steady la! same here! LOL

5:41 PM  
Blogger Cocka Doodle said...

Haha JL...thats how Ah Nel & I talk wan. No offence intended.

5:57 PM  
Blogger ah nel said...

will :u so agree wit winn then married her...

jl :huh?????oiii...tis is blog lar...everything oso can be written here...

*cocka jeles i got many hugs here tat y*

janicibai :i memang positip wad if not i ledi in newspaper headline tat a sorhai suicide coz of missing his mom...

sucksha :jayden kukuciao lar u..ppl hug whre got count big nen nen or small nen nen wan...then me n cocka kenot hug lar coz he got small lanjiao...LOL

now i wet when kam to work coz stupid thunderstowm make me so chilled...

acebabi :tenk q for sapot...

*i missed meat bone tea*

cocka :muahaha..he tot we fight kar?

jl :he is cock n i m rooster so meet sure cock fight wan...LOL

7:05 PM  
Blogger ah nel said...

i think onli my bestfren can understand me n felt me...tis morning 10++am called me asked whre n notchet slp kar n how am i...i told him i stil alive then he fark me...LOL

1 month at least he sure wil called me n asked hoaw am i...he know im lonely here...
*my fon wallpaper baby is his doter*

onli he knew the reli of his bestfren ah nel da most... :D

7:38 PM  
Blogger Pink Cotton said...

ah nellllllllllllll

why cannot read it on mothers day? i think it is still a nice post lei...cos i think you r a sweet son :)

okok gip u one big hugggggggggggggg

10:14 PM  
Blogger ah nel said...

ah pink cotttttttttt

mother day evelibodi goes with smile n hapi day not by reading a sad post then spoild da mood... ;)

kenot felt da hug ler!fake wan... :P

10:30 PM  
Blogger FireHorse said...

Dun ask how but I awes knew in my heart you were a man of great strength inside. Good heart, since so mani people give you hug, I dunno wat to give you, maybe my shoulder and a listening ear?
Sorry for your pain bout losing your mama.

5:31 AM  
Blogger Winn said...

-_-.........

hey i love milo kosong too!

6:16 AM  
Blogger ah nel said...

firehorse :i know ur sincerity... ;)
feeling better ledi now...

winnfierce : *o*

so our 3rd date no more suet cha,kalot juice,limau ais liao lar ho... :D

8:48 AM  
Blogger wmw said...

It's okay to think about our loved ones who are no longer here...we will be sad, but we can also remember the good things and be happy. I know how it feels like, I lost my dad and wished he is still here so that I can pamper him like how he pampered me when I was a kid. So, think of the happy times, we'll all cry less and smile more! :o) Hugs!

3:25 AM  
Blogger ah nel said...

wmw :thanks but human always nvr aprreciate when we had it...when we lost it we regret...

thanks n i wil owes think of happy time but anyhow my mom stil fresh in my mind...

8:59 AM  

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