Why i didnt visit you on the day i mention about you and thought about you???

This will be a long post and content some sadness so being advice not to continue reading it if you hoping a nice relaxing weekend ahead…this post being written not to ask any pity but it just another post of ‘as time passby’…





On Wednesday 6++pm I was returning my uncle car to him as he borrowed it to me when I sent my car for respray last april…yeah…everyone was asking how come my car spray need 4 month…lol…I need him to send me back to get my car also at the garage…

When he sent me back to get my car,he showed me a bottle of medicine and he told me it belong to grandpa(his father)…it is a gastric syrup as he told me grandpa cant eat tablet coz its hard to munch…then I asked him how was grandpa as I really long time didn’t saw him…its about few month back I didn’t visit grandpa then he told me he just regain his health as he was sick previously and now getting better…*what the farker I’m huh as never visit him for few month and he sick I oso duno*

Yesterday while in office,I received a called from my sis at 2.24pm and I thought she want me to send her anywhere…

Me :ahhh *show her a bit mad voice * :D

Sis :ler to tiko?(where are you?)

Me :ofis cho kang…cho ni(office working…why?)

Sis :ah kong si liaw(grandpa die already)*mcb…so pawderful mia word she used*

Me :hah…cho ni oi?(hah…how come?)

Sis :si ler si liao lar(die… die already lar)*KNN…this sis I should taught her used better word intead of using died but passed away*

Soon after that my dad called me and ask me whether I knew about it and he told me my bro went to KL yesterday morning and cant attend later…my dad ask me to drop by later after finish work…kns…I stay with my bro I oso duno he went to KL…

After I left office around 6pm yesterday,I went there and saw most of my relatives are there and after I pay respect to grandpa I ask one of my uncle that his son work in kiasuland for his phone number…then my aunt ask me wana go there work hia…I told her no lar as got something wana ask only…hehe…I wont let anyone of my family know that I’m leaving coz I like to surprise them as they never cared much about me also…lol

Not much crying this time as I think time passby and everyone can accept death is part of life already…not like last time when I were young,you hear they cry also scared…sial…

I went into my grandpa room and saw my uncle was so sad and swallow rice also so weak…he was the one I borrowed car and we both just talk about my grandpa on the previous day…he ask me why I didn’t eat as there a lot of rice…I told him I was full but instead I haven’t eat…lol…then I tried to cheer him up and asked him wana have some beers as I go bought and he say no need…while my uncle was walking out the room I stroll inside my grandpa drawer and saw some picture of his visit to china few years ago…then I saw old license…wow…1969 mia license…

Suddenly I heard my uncle blaming himself that if he didn’t bath my grandpa he will still alive…then my aunty(his wife) told him its not your fault as who want to get rid of own father…my uncle said after he feed my grandpa lunch then he help my grandpa to take bath and my grandpa say he don’t want to take but my uncle insisted…then my aunty told him its not your fault as everyone also need to take bath…it happen that after bath my grandpa just fell onto the bed and…

If my uncle blame himself then I shall blame myself that so long never visit my grandpa and I should not ask my uncle how was my grandpa…why I didn’t go visit him that nite when I think of him???…as you all know those ‘sueyness’ always around me…

then my uncle came in back to look for some angpau packets and I told him this drawer really a lot n told him grandpa wallet was there also and he say he need the IC too…I ask my uncle can I kept the license and he ask me why so I told him it’s a history already…he told me he also got 1 of it… ;)
But I didn’t took it or shall I kept it???hmmm…then my uncle told me grandpa kept everything and I agree with my uncle…when I say everything really everything he kept…


Ah Kong(grandpa)

I missed those days when I was only 5 or 6 years old that time that every Sunday waiting for you to come back from pasar(market)…I always asked you to bought that square square kueh(carrot cake as I duno how to pronounce it that time) and that cheap cheap fish(kembung as I duno how to pronounce it oso) coz I like to eat carrot cake and fish…a lot of people don’t know how to eat that kind of fish as they said it’s a cheap fish even aunty also says that…what do I cared every fish eaten mia I sure hentam… ;) sometimes I wondering am I a human or fish???lol…I can finish about more than half kilogram big fish and 3 of them 1 shot…u say I crazy or not??? ;P *shhh…that porno I borrowed from you 2 years ago not so nice ler *

Ah Mah(grandma)

I missed those days also when I always request you to cook kiam chai thern(salted vege soup) and curry…I like your the curry you cooked very much and at age of 5 or 6 I already can eat 2 plate of rice whenever you cooked curry…I still remember how it taste but now I cant eat curry as coconut milk and oily food will make me LS…I cant eat rice now as it will make me vomit…




I have a bad memory as maybe my grandpa and grandma passed away on an easy to remember date…my grandpa passed away on Malaysia National day while my grandma passed away on unfamous day that is my birthday…my grandma passed away the same year my mom(her daughter) passed away as maybe she knew my mom cant walk after her cancer operation and she need some help in heaven…sometimes I really wonder how my mom was doing up there and when I depressed I always thinking of joining her since my life so screwed out here…





If I burn some porno for my grandpa will I be whack by my uncle or aunty or not ho??? Its his favourite worr… ;)




P/s:I’m not that sad as yesterday and today I still joking as usual as anything happen,life still need to be continued on…if I’m sad and cry will my grandpa come back???no rite???sorry for my rudeness but thats facts... ;)