Monday, August 21, 2006

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When you were born I went to hospital to look at you and saw how cute and tiny you are…you were born premature and first I saw you I got scared of your tiny size…every moment I saw you were still warm in my heart…

you were born premature with lung infection and that made your breathing so hard…not long after you were born,your lung swollen being admitted to ICU and after work I straight away rushed to hospital to visit you… L your dad told me the needles popping in your hand till swollen then change to another hand and those needles really big…he was so scared and when I heard it I also got scared…I always wondering why god gv you such a hard life…

you were frequently being admitted to hospital since then till your dad didn’t inform me as he know I like kids and heard of you being admitted sure I will rushed to hospital…I still remember your first smile…you were very pretty…


last year when ur lil bro full month party,I carry u in my arm and I stil remember tat day feeling and situation…its stil warm in my heart…ur dad(my fren) was busy entertaining frens around and ur mom was busy with ur lil new born bro…I remember u were looking at my eyes but coughing non stop and all ur sliver on my whole face and body…I knew u really had a hard time and there nothing I can help…all I can did was praying and hope you will recover soon… :(


Yesterday while I was busy online at ah yong shop,I saw he received a few phone calls and suddenly told me that you had left this world peacefully…I was shocked when I heard it and duno what to say…ah yong ask me duno whether its good or not that you had left this world and I told him got good and bad…the good side was god had took over the responsibilities to look after you…then ah yong told me that you had lived with your parents for certain times and I agreed that was the bad side…forgive us both as I just called ah yong just now to ask your age but he duno also…I had a bad memory and forgetful person till your age and your name I also forgotten…wtf I’m…

Sometimes I really thought that am I the person brought those unlucky thing happen to ppl beside me???wherever I’m around things seem like wont work out smoothly…I’m the Chinese called ‘suey’ person maybe…I like kids but why in my life till now I experience 3 kids left this world…First was my uncle second daughter and I even put her to bed last time and look after her while my aunty was busy cooking,second was my best fren baby that passed away in her mom womb,third was I saw our company security so sad while on duty then he told me about his baby passed away…lastly I heard that left this world yesterday made me really sad was you coz I hold u in my arm before,felt the warmness and saw your lovely smile…

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p/s :the answer for yesterday riddle i might post it later o tomorrow...stil pending for your answer...

20 Comments:

Blogger Kenny Ng said...

Im so sorry to read bout it, I really cried. I'm speechless now, I love kids very much too. Be strong ah nel, dun worry about the answers.

5:40 PM  
Blogger ah nel said...

kenny :tis world reli unfair...wat sin they had done?y not xchange their life wit those hamkahlink robbers,killers,kidnappers,snatch thief...those ppl reli don deserve to live...

tenk q kenny...

6:38 PM  
Blogger AceOne said...

Ah Nel, so sad to read about it. Cheer up..life must go on. Be strong.

11:27 PM  
Anonymous angel said...

u are not 'suey' lah ok! dun think nonsense.
i understand how you feel... the denial at first... after that, when everything sinks in, u'll be able to accept it... I've just done that... if angel can do it, so can u...

u like kids? nxt time, hv more loh, ok? ;)

11:56 PM  
Blogger King's wife said...

Don't think that of yourself. It's not within your control. We don't have the answers, just have to accept it. Take it easy...

12:58 AM  
Blogger Simple American said...

Don't consider yourself unlucky. These things happen. Be happy she goes to God and does not suffer any longer.

5:49 AM  
Blogger ah nel said...

ace :yeah...i agree anyhow life must go on...

angel :how kam u no used link mia???u r angel mar i'm human...lol

u wana hv some kids with me??? ;P

king w :but smts its so coincidence happen to me...:(

simpal amalika :i don lyk tis thing happen as they had no sin but yet...sigh...
yeah...tat y i told my best fren tats d good side of it... :)

8:13 AM  
Blogger ah nel said...

tenk q every1 for your cared...*wink*

my blog title 'as time passby'

time passes so sadness wil faded away only left memories...anyhow life must go on...

smth bad happen again last nite...sigh...anyhow i'm leaving soon oso...

kuching = bad memories+sadness

8:27 AM  
Blogger angel said...

what happened last nite ner?
:(

last nite no use link cos dun feel like it... today feel better, so using it :)

i hv kids with u?? -_-"

7:26 PM  
Blogger sengkor said...

sorry to hear that man.. God just love them more..

7:51 PM  
Blogger ah nel said...

angel :rooster year born mia sueyness kua...eveli fren of mine got trouble mia most of them r same yr wit me...

oh...glad to hear tat u ok liao... ;)

wan kar???wan kar???lol

sengkor :god noe we cant afford to take cared those special one.... :(

8:07 AM  
Blogger titoki said...

Wow, you are really a kind-hearted person. All the tattoos on your body don't do you justice. *winks* :)

2:50 PM  
Blogger ah nel said...

titoki :tenk q...but ho d pulice wont tink so ler...once u got pikcher on ur bodi they say u kengster liao... :(

i lyk tattoo coz of art not kengsterism... :(

3:38 PM  
Blogger Chen said...

Lotsa things are out of our control..
There are many small children who are suffering out there at the moment..
The irony of life :(

10:59 PM  
Blogger angel said...

rooster suey meh? dun say like dat lar... maybe this year luck not so good kuar... but i know this year is not good for Dragons...

pssst pssst... try mandi bunga... ;)

1:45 AM  
Blogger ah nel said...

lokter :tat made me sad to hear tat even i no related to them...tis world reli unfair... :(



angeliu :i go temple they say last yr n tis ye rooster born mia ppl reli no good...u born in dragon yr kar???same as my cister...

mali sama sama mandi... :P

7:49 AM  
Blogger Sasha said...

so sad story..so scared also cos i also have a baby.

1:05 PM  
Blogger ah nel said...

sasha :aiksss...soli...don think too much...blief god as he almighty... ;)

9:28 PM  
Blogger angel said...

nolah, i not dragon baby... i angel baby larr... :P

sama-sama mandi???
*pengsan 10x* :P

3:08 AM  
Blogger ah nel said...

angel oso got babi kar???how kam i duno mia???lol...

supposedly i'm pengsan... lol

8:05 AM  

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